3020 Emotions and Memories II
Thousands of memories appeared before me, making me cry so much that I hadn’t in ages.
These were the happy tears, which I am more than willing to shed.
Soon all the happy memories appeared in front of me, but they did not stop; they kept appearing, but not in the loop, at random, which I felt more comfortable than I would have been in the loop.
I felt like I could stop at any moment, the only thing I had to do was look away, but I did not; I let the memories appear in front of me and watched them with joy on my face.
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I don’t know for how long I watched, but I did, till the memories stopped appearing, and I just laid back on the mat and closed my eyes.
I remained such for a few minutes before I opened my eyes and got up, feeling a lot lighter than before.
The memories showed me what matters to me the most, and I will give my all to protect them and my precious world.
I got up and walked toward the next statue; it took me a few minutes to reach it, and when I did, I sat on the mat with a perfect view and looked at the statue.
It is of a woman with two horns on her head and claws for her hands, and it contains so much anger that it could burn the world with a single glance.
I moved my gaze away from those eyes just as I looked at them and even thought of going for a different statue, but I calmed my mind and looked at the eyes of the statue again.
This time I did not look away, and soon the memories of anger began to flood in.
The first memory that came had surprised me; I thought it would be about the Grimms or the bastards from the sky saber, but no.
The first memory is when I was about four or five and in the supermarket with my mother, and angry at her because she wouldn’t buy me a snack that I wanted so much.
It was over budget, and we couldn’t afford it, but I wanted it since everyone in my school had eaten it.
I still remember how I slept hungry that day; I vowed that I wouldn’t eat till my parents bought me that expensive snack, but I woke up at midnight feeling very hungry and ate the dinner’s leftovers.
A smile couldn’t help but appear on my face remembering it; especially the looks my parent gave me the next day.
They were trying so hard to hold back their laughter.
Hundreds of other memories appeared in front of me before Grimms appeared, and the anger I felt toward them was like a volcano.
I wanted to summon my sword immediately and even did, but it did not come out, as all my powers were sealed.
It is a good thing they did, and now I could even understand the reason behind it.
If the power is not sealed in this extreme burst of emotions, then one will harm not only himself but also others around them.
Thousands of rageful memories of Grimms appeared in front of me, from the first werewolf I saw, who wanted to kill me, to the numerous Grimms I saw eating human flesh.
It was quite long before the memories of those bastards from the sky saber came, the time when they messed with my homing beacon and sent me to the spatial sea to die.
If it was not for the protection talisman I had found in the ruin and the professor spotting me when the protection was about to burst, I would die.
I have not forgotten about my revenge; I will have it after the problem of the Grimms is solved, and that time even Elder Lord and the rest of the Grand Lords of sky saber wouldn’t be able to stop me.
They couldn’t stop me even now, but as I had said, I will take my revenge when we have the victory over the Grimms.
The memories kept flashing while the tears again began to flow out of my eyes. Which kind of surprised me, as I had tears of joy before but never had tears of anger.
I shouldn’t be surprised, I am feeling extreme emotions, and such things happened, and I did not resist it.
Soon, all the memories of anger appeared in front of me before they started to appear at random, I watched them all till everything stopped, and once again, I lay on the mat with my eyes closed.
A few minutes later, I got up again and moved to other statues, this was about regret, and I have thousands of them; the same is about despair, which the statue after that is showing.
I could not count the times I had felt despair, but every time, I beat it, and this time too, I will do the same.
I sat in front of one statue after another, each showed me different memories, and after experiencing these memories, I began to feel lighter and lighter, which I had not felt in years.
Especially since the war had begun.
Soon, I had finished up eight statues, and only one had remained; it was the first statue I saw, of the woman lying in a sensual pose, with eyes filled with lust and desire; I have kept this one for the last.
I sat down but did not immediately look at it.
These statues showed me many things; some were quite embarrassing, and some even made me feel shame.
This one will bring out the memories of lust and desire, and I am confident some of them will turn my whole-body red.
After more than ten minutes, I looked at the woman; I did not focus on her face, but the whole body, which I had not seen earlier, and I have to say, the woman was the most beautiful creature I had ever seen.
An incarnation of lust and desires.
She looked like a human but had thin scales covering her body, and seeing those, I couldn’t help but imagine them shining in rainbow light for some reason.
I looked at every part of her body and was quite grateful that no one was around, especially Marina.
I don’t want to be seen as a pervert by my girlfriend; if she had been here, I wouldn’t dare to look at the statue.
After looking through every part of my body, I looked into the eyes, and soon, the first memory poured in.
Immediately my whole body turned red in embarrassment; it seemed like I had felt those emotions far too earlier than I had thought I had, and it couldn’t help but embarrass me to the extreme.
As more memories poured in, the more embarrassed I became.
This embarrassment only lessened when I became thirteen.
When I got attracted to a cute girl, I had crushed on her for years, which is why I was crushed when I saw her making out with Ellen.
Remembering that memory, a smile couldn’t help but appear on my face, but when I saw them a decade ago, all I could feel was anger; earlier, the statue of anger showed how angry I was that time at both of them.
Soon the mature memories begin to appear, my first time with Rachel and then with Mira, and finally with Marina, my eternal love.
The memories of her made me cry, but they also made me laugh at the same time.
They also made me realize how much I missed her, and I nearly got up to leave to meet her.