406 Hurting Decision
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Prince Theron became a king and Esther a Queen of Megaris. With new positions and power, the new responsibilities came into their hands. King Esteban always knew his first son Prince Theron would be a great king and he could hand over the responsibility of this kingdom to him blindly.
It’s been a year since they got married and Esther was troubled with not being able to conceive and now this new responsibility of being a Queen of this kingdom was in front of her. From now on everyone would expect more things from her and giving a new heir to Ivanov and the next owner of this throne came out to be the most expected thing from her.
Esther, who returned to her bed-chamber after dealing with her duties as queen, was thinking about how other women asked her when she will be having a baby. It was more like they were mocking her.
The most hurting thing was when someone pointed out if prince Theron was lacking in anyways that Esther was not able to conceive. She heard the royal harem ladies whisper among themselves.
“Is our Queen really barren?”
“Who knows if our Queen is barren or if our king is lacking in something.”
“King Theron? Do you really think so?”
“I am not sure but it can be possible.”
Someone laughed, “What if what he looks at on the outside is not exactly on the inside. Maybe he can not perform his husband’s duties.”
“Shh! If someone hears you, you will get all of our heads chopped.”
Lady Tyra, who didn’t fail to notice the distress in Esther’s face, said, “Your Eminence, you should not take their words at heart.”
“It’s not about what they said, Tyra but I wonder why I can’t conceive. I have powers and can do anything I want but why is this the only thing I am not able to do. Am I really barren?”
“Your Eminence, can I check something?” Lady Tyra asked.
Esther nodded and lady Tyra kneeled in front of Esther who was sitting at the edge of her bed. “Your Majesty, I wish to try something but I am not sure if it will be successful. Though you have great powers compared to me, there can be things that you might not be able to find or understand on your own. Can I?”
Esther nodded and Lady Tyra put forward her hands, “I will need to hold your hands, Your Eminence.”
Esther put her hands in hers without asking any questions. Lady Tyra held her hand and closed her eyes as she focussed on something. After a while, she opened her eyes and looked at Esther.
“What is it?” Esther asked worriedly.
“Your Eminence, I would like to ask something.”
“Go ahead.”
“Your Eminence, in the past, was there any incident when you have been tied to someone or there is something like you share a bond with someone?” Lady Tyra asked, feeling hesitant.
Esther’s eyes wavered as she didn’t expect Lady Tyra to ask something that she never wished anyone to know and wished to forget.
Seeing the change in Esther’s expressions, Lady Tyra said, “If Your Eminence doesn’t wish to say…”
“Can it be the reason for this?” Esther asked in a panic.
Lady Tyra nodded unwillingly and then looked at the flower mark on Esther’s hand, “Is this mark the reason of it?”
Lady Tyra and all of her kind had always known about Esther from her past and real-life from their ancestors. She had read about Esther having a mark on the back of her neck that only she could have and only their kind could see it but there was no mention of the flower mark on Esther’s hand. Even in any books of their kind, she had never seen or read about that mark which means only Esther had it and that mark had nothing to with the kind Esther belonged to.
After staying silent for a while, Esther nodded and then she looked at the plant which had only a single flower bloomed at it. Esther twirled her fingers and the magic barrier that kept that plant invisible to others, lifted up.
“Do you see that plant?” Esther asked.
Lady Tyra nodded and heard Esther, “This mark is that plant. The one who had gifted me this plant is my soulmate.”
It shocked lady Tyra, “Y-Your Eminence….”
“I know you have so many questions but for now just know that we were not meant to be. He and I can never be together whatever I do. That’s our destiny,” Esther commented and exhaled, “I don’t know why this flower has chosen him for me knowing that he and I can never be together. There is no way it is ever possible. Then what is the meaning of having this bond?”
Lady Tyra could see the hurt and disappointment on Esther’s face and said, “Your Eminence, there might be a reason behind it. My grandmother always said nothing happens without a reason. Sometimes few are meant to get hurt to be a reason leading to a great cause. Though you two can’t be together, having such a bond might be there to fulfil some kind of destiny.”
Esther only sighed, “I don’t know what to think about it anymore.”
“For now we can conclude that the reason you can’t conceive Prince Theron’s child is that you are bonded with someone else. You are destined to have only his child, Your Eminence.”
Esther felt like the floor under her feet had disappeared and she would fall somewhere deep down. She had never expected things to turn out like this.
“Your Eminence, are you okay?” Lady Tyra asked.
Esther shook her head saying she was not okay and said, “It’s all my fault that Theron can’t have kids. I failed him. If I knew about this, I would have never….”
Seeing such a powerful person broken like this, Lady Tyra felt sad, “Your Eminence, please don’t be like this. You know Prince Theron would never think that way. He loves you and he expects nothing more than having you by his side.”
Esther’s eyes turned moist, “I know Tyra and that is what makes me feel even worse. I don’t deserve his love. I have hidden my identity from him. He trusts me blindly and truly loves me but I can’t even give him a child. If I had known this truth, I would have left this kingdom long back even before letting him fall for me. I am a sinner, Tyra.”
“N-No, Your Eminence. We all have a right to be happy. You chose it for you but I am sure there must be a reason for it which you might not be able to avoid whatever you try. You were meant to be here and meet Prince Theron. Things can not happen with a powerful person like you without any reason. It’s not your fault. Trust me, Your Eminence.”
Esther stayed silent for a while and asked, “What will happen if Theron won’t have a child?” She looked serious as well as worried when she asked it.
“If Prince Theron never had a child, then his half brothers or cousins or their kids might claim the throne after him.”
“Will they wait for Theron to retire?” Esther asked as she had so many doubts in her mind.
“I don’t wish to scare you but there are so many examples from the history of this continent when others tried to snatch the throne from the existing king.”
“By what means?” Esther asked.
“I don’t wish to scare you, Your Eminence but they might try to harm the Prince. But I am sure, just like the previous kings, Prince Theron is capable of protecting himself and must have known all these possibilities.”
“Having one child, can it make a big difference?” Esther asked.
Lady Tyra nodded, “When they can get a throne so easily then why would they wait for prince Theron to retire. After Prince Theron, if he has no child to claim the throne, then it’s a good opportunity for them to get rid of him.”
Esther understood and said, “Someone had previously tried to harm him. We need to be careful.”
“Yes, Your Eminence.”
“Also, prepare a list of desirable daughters from noble families,” Esther instructed.
It shocked Lady Tyra but she collected herself and asked, “May I know the reason, Your Eminence?”
“It’s my mistake if I can’t conceive but I can not let others look down on my husband. I can not let him be misunderstood by others,” Esther said coldly with determination.
“But, Your Eminence….”
“Just do what I had asked you,” Esther interrupted her and stood up as she went to that plant and put on the spell again to hide it.
“Yes, Your Eminence,” Lady Tyra had no option but to agree to it.
“Also, arrange for me to visit Crystal Palace tomorrow,” Esther instructed.
“Yes, Your Eminence.” Lady Tyra left while Esther stood silent as she looked at the flower. She didn’t know what to think about it.
only one thought came to her mind, ‘Was it my mistake to accept this flower from him? I didn’t know it will choose only him as my soulmate. If I knew….’ she closed her eyes, ‘Being young and naive is the worse thing in life. I wish I was not like that in the past.’
She thought about what she had instructed lady Tyra with. Though she had said it with determination, she felt hurt and she knew her decision will definitely hurt Prince Theron more.