Chapter 174 - 174 Goodbye, Poor Thing
174 Goodbye, Poor Thing
After entering the classroom, Li Chengqian quickly put away his personal belongings in his bag.
As he was packing, Jian Qingli stood up without saying a word. Her eyes were a little red and swollen, but she was taking the initiative to help Li Chengqian pack his things. Li Chengqian didn’t turn her down.
Soon, Li Chengqian was done packing. Then, he carried his things and was about to leave.
“Li Chengqian, are you still coming back?” Jian Qingli’s voice was trembling with anticipation.
“I’m not coming back. I’ve already applied for a long leave of absence. I’ll only come back when the university entrance examination begins,” Li Chengqian replied with a smile.
Although she had already guessed the outcome, Jian Qingli’s eyes immediately dimmed a lot. Originally, she was still looking forward to Li Chengqian’s return to class. She could use her proximity as his deskmate to improve their relationship. Now that Li Chengqian had packed his things and was leaving, she won’t even have this last chance to try.
“I I’ll walk you out. After all, we’ve been deskmates for three years.” An awkward, bitter smile on Jian Qingli’s beautiful face.
“Sure!” Li Chengqian didn’t turn her down.
She was trying to tell Li Chengqian that she had already changed. She was also willing to change for Li Chengqian.
“Yes, we have moved!” Li Chengqian replied indifferently, but he didn’t respond to anything else.
“Li Chengqian, you haven’t forgiven me. You still hate me, right?” Jian Qingli’s voice sounded even more pitiful, as if she was begging.
“I’ve never blamed you, and I’ve never hated you.” Li Chengqian shook his head. When he had just been reborn, he only felt that Jian Qingli’s ending was very pitiful and wanted to help her. Perhaps he did fantasize about Jian Qingli in his previous life.
However, Jian Qingli’s subsequent actions completely shattered his fantasy of her.
“Li Chengqian, I know that you must blame me. You must think that I’m a snob and that I’m a materialistic and realistic woman. Before you revealed your talent, I ignored you. Now that you are successful, I’m trying to get close to you again.” Jian Qingli’s tone was desolate.
Li Chengqian took a long look at Jian Qingli. He had a whole new level of respect for her. It was hard for him to imagine that Jian Qingli would actually be so honest.
“Also, my mother has always been very snobbish. She likes to compare herself to others and she loves to show off. I know that many people look down on me and my mother,” Jian Qingli said.
Actually, there were a lot of things that she had been holding in for 18 years. She really wanted to find someone to confide in, but there had never been a suitable person or a suitable opportunity for her to say these words.
“Li Chengqian, do you know why?” Jian Qingli asked self-deprecatingly.
“Why?” Li Chengqian was also very curious. Whether it was in his previous life or this life, he felt that Jian Qingli’s mother acted weirdly and was very snobbish.
“Because my mother is my father’s mistress! She is a kept woman!” Jian Qingli’s tone became even more desolate.
“I was born out of wedlock.”
“Originally, if I were a boy, my father might have brought us back and made us legitimate.”
“It’s a pity that I’m a girl and not a boy as my father desired. So for many years, we appeared to have a family, but in fact, we didn’t.” At this point, tears rolled down Jian Qingli’s face.
“My mother has a low self-esteem. She’s afraid of others talking about her, and she’s also afraid that others will look down on her when they find out about this. So, she over compensates by showing anything good that she has, so that everyone will envy her.”
“As long as there’s anything good about others, she’ll compare herself to them. Only in this way can she feel at ease, and this is how she constantly comforts herself that she made the right choice to be my father’s mistress back then.”
“My mother was afraid I’d go down her path. She wanted me to be happy.”
“That’s why she kept telling me her principles. I have to choose a man with strong capabilities and good potential if I want to live a good life. Besides being capable myself, I have to find a capable husband.”
“Li Chengqian, this is my secret, and also the most embarrassing thing for me. Please keep it a secret for me.”
“Although I hate my father, and although he didn’t take care of me for a day like a normal father, he has been financially supporting my mother and I. We can’t survive without him.”
At this point, Jian Qingli smiled, but it was a sad, bitter smile.
Actually, she had wanted to share this with someone for a long time, but she didn’t dare to, so she had been suppressing it in her heart.
After confiding in Li Chengqian, she felt much lighter.
“I see, I understand! Don’t worry, I won’t tell anyone.” After Li Chengqian heard Jian Qingli’s words, he finally understood why Jian Qingli’s mother was so strange.
Everything stemmed from her inferiority complex.
At the same time, he also understood why Jian Qingli’s personality was like that.
Li Chengqian looked at the teary Jian Qingli and felt sorry for her that she was born into such a family.
Hence, his tone towards Jian Qingli became gentler.
“Jian Qingli, I didn’t expect your experience to be like this.”
“It’s really pitiful.”
“However, a person’s birth and early life experience does not determine his future or achievements.”
“If you work hard, things might be different.”
“I hope you don’t give up.”
“Alright, I’m leaving. Goodbye.” However, he spoke with a gentler tone this time. Li Chengqian didn’t have any other thoughts. He turned around and walked out of the school gate. Outside the gate, there was a car waiting for Li Chengqian.
“Goodbye, Li Chengqian.” Jian Qingli could no longer suppress her emotions and her tears fell uncontrollably. With disappointment, regret and reluctance, she watched the car pull away.
She knew that this was very likely the last time she and Li Chengqian would ever meet.
Because they were already people from two different worlds.
Li Chengqian was successful and in a different league, while she was still struggling for the future.
After a long time, Jian Qingli wiped her tears and walked into the classroom in a daze. “Li Chengqian should still be participating in the finals of the Junior Informatics Programming Competition. He promised Ding Ling that he would help her gain direct admission to Divine Dragon University via this competition.”
In the past, when Jian Qingli heard Li Chengqian say these words, she only felt that he was bragging, and he was bragging to attract her attention. At that time, she even felt that Li Chengqian was a little funny.
Now that she looked back at what Li Chengqian had said, everything he said was the truth!
Li Chengqian had done everything he said he would do!
In the end, the joke was not on Li Chengqian, but on herself. Jian Qingli said self-deprecatingly, “In the end, I’m the real clown.”
Looking at the direction Li Chengqian left in, Jian Qingli was still unwilling to accept the fact. “Perhaps Li Chengqian and I can still meet again. Perhaps I still have a chance. One last chance.”
“I must seize this opportunity,”
“Even if he doesn’t like me after the incident and doesn’t accept me!!”
“I still want to give it a try.”
“A woman’s most precious gift, rather than giving it to a mediocre person. I’d rather give it to him.” Jian Qingli seemed to have thought of something and blushed.