Chapter 356 - REALLY ADORABLE
LUO YAN observed Shen Ji Yun's reaction, not leaving a single micro-expression go unnoticed. He saw the other's body stiffened like a block of ice. Then his eyes became erratic and suddenly filled with nervousness. He could even see a trace of guilt. But what were you guilty about?
Shen Ji Yun was indeed feeling guilty. How could he explain that this 'NightCloud' was the CP name of him and Luo Yan's game avatars? In the first place, would his rabbit even know what CP meant? He didn't even know what it meant until he did some research.
Then there was his attitude of condoning this CP. He even went so far as creating a Weibo account and crazily reposting all the fan-arts made by that girl Catnip. And in his every repost he would write things like; 'Noctis and YUN should be together forever', 'NightCloud is not just a CP, it's a way of life', things like that. Then he would also save the fan-arts made by Catnip in a special folder.
Now, that he thought about it more clearly, his actions were a tad bit creepy. If his rabbit knew about it, wouldn't he be scared of him? He might even compare him to some deluded stalker. He almost had a pained expression thinking of that. He probably should have stopped before his actions became a habit, but he couldn't.
Logging into Weibo, checking the fan-arts, then reposting and praising it was something he had been doing since he discovered Catnip's account. Soon, he didn't even notice that it had slowly became a habit for him. A very bad one at that. It's like he was indulging in the illusion that those fan-arts created. The illusion of him being the closest person to Luo Yan. That the two of them were together and in love. As if it was a drug he couldn't get rid of and slowly being addicted to its effect.
Truly embarrassing. If he let Luo Yan knew about this, he might be labeled as 'strange'. Even he, himself, thought it was strange. Then his rabbit might really ran away from him, completely cutting off whatever relationship they had. Just thinking about it could make his heart ached in an unbearable pain. So, no, he must do everything so Luo Yan wouldn't discover his small vest.
Luo Yan witnessed all the change in Shen Ji Yun's face. From the initial worry to guilt to frustration to hurt and to the last determination, he saw it all. Luo Yan suddenly felt a bit funny. Just what the heck was Shen Ji Yun thinking that he had shown so many expressions in just a span of a few seconds? He wondered what was going on in that head of his. But he felt like he already had an answer.
He was probably overthinking things and making something simple into something very complicated. He had long noticed that Shen Ji Yun would often over-complicate things. Especially when it had something to do with Luo Yan. With this, he slowly understood one thing. That Shen Ji Yun was harboring a little degree of insecurity inside him. It was well-hidden, but it was there. Lurking somewhere inside him.
No one would probably ever think that such a young man who was handsome, rich, and smart would have any kind of insecurities. If Luo Yan wasn't paying attention to Shen Ji Yun, he probably wouldn't even notice it himself.
Generally, the source of insecurity for people, no matter how small, usually stemmed in their childhood. If a child felt the lack of security and love, it would definitely have an effect as they grew up. He knew that Shen Ji Yun's situation was exactly something that could cause a thing like this to happen.
A child who lost his father at a young age. His mother was still alive but his guardianship was somehow given to his uncle instead. These things could definitely have an effect on a child's mentality.
Luo Yan was not exactly familiar on all the details involving Shen Ji Yun's situation. He probably only knew what was on the surface. And of course, he wouldn't ask Shen Ji Yun about it. First, he didn't have the right to do that. Second, he didn't want to be the one to dig up the other's wound. And lastly, he hoped that it would be Shen Ji Yun who would open up to him on his own volition.
If he opened up to him, tell him all his worries and agonies, he would not only listen, he would also do his best to lessen his pain. If he could give him the security that he needed, he would.
But he knew that this was not the right time. He wasn't even ready yet himself. So, how dare he be presumptuous? His action would just most likely hurt the other.
Seeing Shen Ji Yun's complicated expressions, Luo Yan couldn't help but sigh. He truly wanted to tease the other. His heart was already itching for it. But thinking of the guy's psychological activity right now, he held himself back and decided to let him off just this once.
He was about to speak but Shen Ji Yun beat him to it.
"It's nothing. Just some messy things that a player made up."
Luo Yan narrowed his eyes at the other's obvious lie. [Brother Ji Yun, I already decided to let you off. Why are you making my heart itch again? You're forcing me to tease you.]
And he couldn't help but sigh once again.
Shen Ji Yun tightened his hold on the reins of the horse he was riding when he heard Luo Yan sigh again. Did he find out that he was just making excuses? What if this made him think that he was just being perfunctory and not taking his question seriously? Would he be annoyed at him?
At his panicked state, he ended up blurting, "It's the pair name of our game avatars!"
Luo Yan blinked a couple of times, looking a bit unbelieving at Shen Ji Yun. He already had a guess in his mind when he heard the name 'NightCloud'. Night was from his game name Noctis while the Cloud part was from YUN. He just didn't expect that Shen Ji Yun would really admit it to him.
He couldn't help but laugh. Then he moved his horse beside Shen Ji Yun's. He reached out his hand and pinched the other's cheek. "Brother Ji Yun is really adorable."
Shen Ji Yun's eyes widened. Then his whole face automatically turned into a bright red color.
This scene was directly seen by the other players staring at the two. They all couldn't wait to take a screenshot of this scene. Surely, the topic of YUN and Noctis going on a date at Tropical Land would be all over the game forum by tomorrow.