Chapter 253 - Lin Chu’s Heart Stung at the Way He Looked at Her, Saying, “Don’t Look at Me like That, I Feel Bad.”
Chapter 253: Lin Chu’s Heart Stung at the Way He Looked at Her, Saying, “Don’t Look at Me like That, I Feel Bad.”
Translator: EndlessFantasy Translation Editor: EndlessFantasy Translation
Lin Chu was unable to eat from the way he looked at her. She raised her head and asked, “What are you looking for? You look at me every day. Can you even look at me so much this morning that a flower grows out?”
Yan Beicheng swallowed the stir-fried noodles in his mouth and asked, “The child still doesn’t have any movement?”
Lin Chu, “…”
“No.” The corner of Lin Chu’s lips twitched, and she rolled her eyes at him. She replied, “I thought that you’re looking at me. It’s all for the child. Sigh, women who got pregnant and become old won’t be considered highly of. What merely remains in the heart and eyes is the child.”
“Pow!” Yan Beicheng slapped the chopsticks onto the table. As the movement was a bit big, it scared Lin Chu.
She looked over in shock. ‘Could it be that I pretend too much and finally make it unbearable for Yan Beicheng?’
She had not finished her thoughts when a shadow cast on the top of her head. Yan Beicheng leaned his body from the table and kissed her hard on the lips.
Aunt Zhuang had just tidied up their bedroom and came out. She was coming from the living room when she saw the scene in the dining room. She exclaimed “oh dear” in her heart and ran away covering her face.
Yan Beicheng did not let go of Lin Chu for quite a while. He kissed her to the point that she had difficulty breathing and her face turned red from it. It was only then he noticed it through his squinted eyes and released her.
Both of his palms, however, cupped her face firmly, only letting her go by himself after staring at her for a long time. He took a turn and grazed her nose once with his long, defined finger and commented, “You’re being temperamental with me again!”
Lin Chu licked her lips and looked at him in embarrassment and admitted, “I can’t… can’t help it.”
She suddenly turned around and said in a very mischievous manner, “Isn’t it because you’ve spoiled me? So even if I act temperamental occasionally, you have to endure it.”
“Who said it’s not?” Yan Beicheng said in a low voice. A light, warm smile that was full of love for Lin Chu hung on the corner of his lips. He was not angry for the slightest bit. “I’ve told you before that I won’t be angry despite you acting temperamental. Why were you afraid just now? Don’t you believe what I said before?”
It was not something that Lin Chu should feel guilty about, yet under Yan Beicheng’s bright gaze she still felt guilty nevertheless.
His black pupils were full of warmth without a shred of anger. Perhaps he still felt a little hurt due to her distrust which made Lin Chu regretted even more.
It was not that Lin Chu did not trust him, but it was because she was afraid that she went overboard. Anyone would have moments when they were at the end of their patience, no?
She could not always depend on the counterpart’s adoration to continuously bully people.
This was what Lin Chu felt guilty about instead; it was not because she feared him.
She explained, “It’s because you suddenly slapped the chopsticks on the table just now. As your movement was slightly big, I was afraid…I was afraid that I’ve gone too far.”
Yan Beicheng looked at her while smirking, “So you do know that you’re being temperamental with me?”
“Didn’t you say that you let me act how I want to? This is also a way to spice up the romance between husband and wife,” Lin Chu said. She stretched her neck to make herself appear more confident. She even had the guts to raise her hand and pinched Yan Beicheng’s nose, and said, “This is me reminding you to not forget me as well no matter what, even if your heart thinks about your son.”
“How is it possible that I would forget about you? Besides, I can even love her a bit more if it’s a girl but since it’s a boy, I’d only cherish him when he’s in your stomach. Who will still care about him after he is born? The reason I’m thinking about him now is because of you. He has your help, thanks to you,” Yan Beicheng explained nonchalantly. Lin Chu seemed to feel something rolled in her stomach for a short while as if her son caught what Yan Beicheng said and he was throwing a fit gloomily inside.
Lin Chu thought her son had a very good temper as he was only moving slightly and did not use his strength violently when he was throwing a fit.
“You, however, have to remember what you said today as well. You don’t like me valuing the child more than you. Similarly, I also don’t like you regarding the child more important than me. I’ve certainly heard a lot that women will devote to the child wholeheartedly, cast the husband aside and neglect them after giving birth. If you’re also like this when the time comes, I’ll only then be truly angry,” Yan Beicheng reminded. He seemed to imagine how Lin Chu would fling him aside, putting all her attention on the son and not even glancing at him, Yan Beicheng’s face became extremely unhappy.
He was grinding his teeth as he spoke those words as if he had met his tragic future. His expression of looking at Lin Chu had already resembled those that were looking at a cheater.
“…” Lin Chu’s entire body truly did not feel good from how he gazed at her as if she had let him down. She asked helplessly, “Who did you hear it from?”
“In any case, it’s said this way,” Yan Beicheng said. He would not admit that he had secretly visited the online forum for mommies at the company. Plus, Zuo Qiu would gossip with him on how to raise a child when he had nothing to do.
Zuo Qi himself was still a knotty problem yet he still had the nerve to tell him all day long about what would happen once he had a child.
There was once when they were eating lunch and it just so happened that a young couple brought their child along to eat. The child was seated in a baby chair and looked to be three or four years old; an age that children could eat by themselves but would not want to do so.
Hence the young mother coaxed and fed the son for the whole lunch session. She did not manage to eat properly and only managed to stuff a few mouthfuls of food during intervals. She did not even have the time to talk to the husband, and when she did so, it was a perfunctory reply made in a preoccupied fashion. Her attention was all on the son.
At that time, Zuo Qiu covertly pointed to the side and whispered, “Master Yan, look. Wait till I have a child in the future, I absolutely won’t let my wife be so indulged. It won’t do if she treats me coldly to take care of the child. Regardless of how the child is, I would still have to be number one. Since it’s a son, he would have to be raised strongly. If he doesn’t want to eat properly, then he doesn’t have to eat. What’s the point of coaxing? Not only he won’t be allowed to eat, but also he’ll be whooped when we return home so that he won’t dare to not eat decently later on.”
Zuo Qiu looked proud. He did not even have a girlfriend, but he had a set of gained knowledge for raising children.
Yan Beicheng merely glanced indifferently at him then and said, “Find someone willing to give birth for you first and then talk about it.”
Zuo Qiu, “…”
It was a mean choke that he got.
Though Yan Beicheng’s mouth ridiculed him in such a way, his heart did remember what Zuo Qiu said and felt that it made sense.
He pinched Lin Chu’s cheeks and asked, “Do you understand or not?”
“Yes, I do,” Lin Chu acknowledged obediently.
Yan Beicheng’s gaze slightly hung down and fell onto her stomach again, “Has the baby moved?”
Lin Chu, “…”
Where had the regard of her being important which he agreed gone to?
After saying so much, he had not forgotten the son yet!
Lin Chu was about to say that she seemed to have felt that her son moved slightly just now when the doorbell rang.
Aunt Zhuang could no longer hide and hurriedly went to answer the door.
Lin Chu heard lively sounds straight away. “Xiao Zhuang, have Cheng’er and Lin Chu went to work already? We did not arrive late, right?”
“They’re still eating,” Aunt Zhuang replied.
When the two elders walked into the dining room joyfully, Yan Beicheng had already stood up. Lin Chu was also standing up while supporting her belly.
“Goodness me, sit down. Why are you being so polite? You guys continue eating,” Old Lady Yan said as she beamed.
“Why have you two elders come over?” Yan Beicheng asked, seeing that Old Master Yan was following behind Old Lady Yan and coming in with his hands clasped behind his back.
He pulled out two chairs to let the two elders sit.
“Grandma, have you guys eaten yet?” asked Lin Chu.
“Yes, we have. We don’t sleep a lot so we woke up early. We only came over after having a meal.” Old Lady Yan said, “You guys eat and don’t have to mind us. We’ve heard that Lin Chu has fetal movement, so we come over to have a look.”
Despite her words, Aunt Zhuang still poured glasses of milk for each of the two elders.
Old folks could not eat much but it was still best to be 80% full, as such they did not particularly invite them to eat and only served milk so they could drink and chat at the same time.
“…” Yan Beicheng ate a spoonful of scrambled eggs before asking, “You guys came over early in the morning for this?”
“Well, we’re anxious. I heard yesterday that you purposely went to Xiao Wei’s company because you wanted to be the first one to feel it?” Old Lady Yan said and drank a mouthful of milk.
Yan Beicheng was drinking his water and spit it out upon hearing what was said. He asked, “Who was so garrulous?”
Old Lady Yan glared at him and said, “Why is it called garrulous? You didn’t tell us about such an important matter. You wanted to keep him for yourself?”
Yan Beicheng immediately thought about the moment when they previously went to check the baby’s gender at the hospital. The Old Master and Old Lady had sidelined him, not giving him, the biological father, a chance to see the child. He became exceedingly guarded facing the two elders now.
“What do you mean keeping him to myself? I’m his biological father,” Yan Beicheng said proudly and straightened his back. “Besides, it’s the same as telling you guys after we go to the Family Mansion. What’s the big deal about this?”
Old Lady Yan felt that this big grandson did not understand their excitement and did not feel that he would understand too even if she would to explain to him. She turned her head and looked fervently at Lin Chu, to the point that Lin Chu started to feel uncomfortable with Old Lady Yan’s gaze.
“Grandma, what’s wrong?” Lin Chu could not even finish her meal.
“Lin Chu, has your stomach moved now?” Old Lady Yan asked with anticipation.
Lin Chu was just about to answer when a spoon of scrambled eggs appeared up by her mouth. Turning her head, she saw that Yan Beicheng was holding up the spoon.
“Eat,” Yan Beicheng instructed.
Lin Chu looked at the spoon and was fed a mouthful of scrambled eggs. She heard Yan Beicheng saying, “So you guys came over early in the morning just for this?”
“It’s certainly not just that. We also want to greet our great-grandson as soon as possible!” Old Master Yan exclaimed. He had a look that said ‘you’re unfilial’ and it choked Yan Beicheng.
Lin Chu said docilely, “He indeed moved a bit just now.”
It was unknown when did Yan Beicheng moved his chair and sat next to Lin Chu. Probably because it was more convenient to feed her this way.
Hearing what she just said, his feeding did not stop but he asked, “Why didn’t you tell me just now?”
Lin Chu, “…”
She wanted to say, ‘Weren’t we interrupted by the sudden arrival of the two elders?’
Yan Beicheng recalled it and stopped pursuing the matter. The very next second, Lin Chu felt a hand on her belly.
She lowered her head to look. Yan Beicheng’s hand was on her belly.
Initially, he had only need to use one hand to cover her whole lower abdomen but now that she was heavily pregnant, there was still space left.
“Don’t be distracted, eat,” Yan Beicheng reminded. He twirled some noodles with the chopsticks for Lin Chu to eat.
Yan Beicheng took care of Lin Chu very well when they stayed at the Family Mansion, hence Lin Chu did not avoid the two elders. The two elders were also not conservative people in which they would be unhappy to see their grandson taking care of their granddaughter-in-law.
Just as she took a bite of the noodles, Lin Chu almost choked because Old Lady Yan placed her hand on Lin Chu’s belly too.
Yan Beicheng, “…”
It was not appropriate for Old Master Yan to stroke her belly so he could only look eagerly.
The little fellow inside the stomach stayed still for a long time. Old Lady Yan and Yan Beicheng seemed to be negotiating with the child in the stomach to make him move a bit.
Seeing that they were about to leave, the little fellow finally cooperated and moved slightly. It was only then the two elders left perfectly contented.
Once again, Old Lady Yan now has a topic to chat with her old buddies.
…
When Lin Chu got off from work at night, she received a call from the Principal.
Upon hearing what the Principal said on the phone, Lin Chu did not even know how she got into the car and sat at the front passenger seat. Her entire body still felt as light as a feather with shock painted all over her face.
She did not even know that Yan Beicheng had got out of the car, crossed the road and fetched her. Lin Chu’s brain was not herself; it was empty throughout the entire journey. She entered the car aided and supported by Yan Beicheng who fastened the seat belt properly for her.
Seeing her seated in the car safely, Yan Beicheng only then heaved a sigh of relief. When he was looking at the entrance of her company across from him in the car just now, he saw her looking distracted as she came out. He immediately got out of the car and crossed the road to fetch her. Luckily, he arrived in time otherwise he would be very worried for her in her current condition.
Now seeing that Lin Chu had not snapped out of it yet, he clenched his teeth and became very furious.
He held his anger and started driving. Lin Chu only snapped out of it after the car drove for quite a distance, discovering that the route was heading to the orphanage.
As Lin Chu turned her head in surprise, Yan Beicheng said, “Mo Jingsheng called me. They’re currently at the orphanage. Judging from your reaction, you also might’ve known about it already.”
His voice was very cold. Even at the very beginning, when Yan Beicheng was pursuing her and was misunderstood by her, he fumed too but his voice was never as cold as now.
Lin Chu’s heart shuddered for a bit, turning her head and looking at the side of his ice-cold face. His attractive thin lips pursed tightly into one stern line.
Although Lin Chu would act out for a while from time to time, she would be terrified if Yan Beicheng was truly irate.
Both of her hands subconsciously twisted together like a wronged young wife. She asked, “Are you angry?”
Yan Beicheng turned his head at last and looked at her in the eye. His gaze, however, seemed somewhat taunting.
Lin Chu’s heart stung by the way he looked at her, saying, “Don’t look at me like that, I feel bad.”
Pursing his lips tightly, Yan Beicheng glanced at the car’s surroundings and turned the steering wheel. He found a suitable place to stop and park the car and turned off the engine.
He had a taut expression throughout, and he did not say a word.
Yan Beicheng looked at her for a long time, so much so that Lin Chu felt like breaking into tears before he spoke sternly, “What is so important that made you so worried that you can’t even pay attention to the road and endanger yourself and the child?”
Lin Chu finally understood what he was enraged about. She was being scolded by Yan Beicheng but she did not feel wronged. She knew that she made a mistake and Yan Beicheng was right.
“If I wasn’t there, you are going to walk around absentmindedly and what if something happened? No one can bear this responsibility, even you can’t be responsible for this as well. If something happened, you’ll only feel sad, hurt and suffer the pain. Who can be responsible for that?” Yan Beicheng scolded sternly.
Lin Chu lowered her head. She did not dare to look at him and was ashamed to do so as well. She apologized, “I’m sorry, I did wrong.”
Yan Beicheng pursed his lips, “Every time you made a mistake, you would always acknowledge it very promptly.”
He was admonishing her like a child.
“I know you adore Mo Jinxi and this news is very important to you. You even feel very happy upon hearing the news, but have you ever thought about me, our child, and our family? What would happen to us if you were to meet with an accident? What would happen to me?” Yan Beicheng was extremely furious about this point.
“Do you know how worried I was when I saw you came out of the company so distracted? You walked toward the roadside yet you don’t even know how to look out for traffic. I was afraid that if I went over too late, you would be knocked down or got shocked in that distracted state! When you think about others, can you think a little about me as well?”
Yan Beicheng’s tone became more and more stern. Lin Chu knew it was her fault, and she felt more guilty and ashamed after being scolded by him. Her tears flowed from being rebuked.
“I really know that I’ve made a mistake. I’m sorry. It’s not…it’s not that I don’t care for you all. In my heart, it’s not that Jinxi is more important than you. Nobody can be more important than you and our child. It’s my bad, I’ll no longer be distracted like this anymore,” Lin Chu sobbed, her teardrops the size of beans streaming down her face.
The man who was scolding very loudly at first could not find a way out as soon as he saw her tears. He had told himself in his heart that he should not be softhearted easily and he must teach Lin Chu a lesson so that she would not do it anymore.
Whatever he thought just now, however, was all tossed to the back of his head at this moment because of Lin Chu’s tears. He did not have the slightest bit of principle in this.
The man who was initially scolding her with solemn words on valid grounds had immediately disarmed surrendered without any principle. He coaxed her in a soft and gentle voice, “Don’t cry. I was too anxious, and I shouldn’t be so fierce to you. There, there, don’t cry.”
Lin Chu shook her head as she sobbed, “No, it’s all my fault. I don’t feel wronged. I shouldn’t have acted like this.”
In the past, Yan Beicheng could pull her into his embrace to hug and coax her, but now he could not do so. Lin Chu had gotten heavier and he could not do so effortlessly like how he used to. Besides, there was not enough space.
“I know, I know that you understand what I meant,” Yan Beicheng assured. He unfastened his seat belt, leaned over and hugged Lin Chu. He explained, “I was terrified when I saw how you were just now. You could have been knocked down at any time and I was scared. There, there, don’t cry. I feel bad again seeing you like this. I regret being angry at you just now.”
As he coaxed her, he lowered his head to kiss her tears.
He sighed in his heart and could not help scolding himself that he was useless. Once he saw her tears, whatever temper he had would vanish. She was the one who made the mistake, yet he had to turn the tables on himself and coaxed her in the end.
The fundamentals of their interaction were already set from the beginning. It could never be changed even till now.
Lin Chu clutched Yan Beicheng’s collar tightly and explained hurriedly, “No one can be more important than you in my heart. It’s true, not even our child.”
Even when Dai Huimin and Xu Jiaojiao appeared back then and she did not know what intentions they harbored, her very first thought was how would it affect Yan Beicheng.
Without Yan Beicheng, she might try to talk to them. She would make the effort to know them better before deciding if she would accept them or not, rather than being cautious with them right from the start for fear of them harming Yan Beicheng.
Her heart wanted to adopt Mo Jinxi yet she wanted to ask for Yan Beicheng’s opinion first.
“I know,” Yan Beicheng replied, patting her back gently.
Maybe it was because he spoke too lightly, Lin Chu’s heart did not feel at peace. She could not tell what was Yan Beicheng’s mood.
She lifted her head and looked at him with her teary eyes. Her pitiful look directly struck Yan Beicheng with immense regret. He thought that he should have spoken to her nicely instead, what’s the point to be fierce to her?
Right now, he was busy wiping away Lin Chu’s tears. She sniffled her stuffed nose, which had turned red from her crying. Her sobbing look made Yan Beicheng felt like he was admonishing a daughter.
She gripped Yan Beicheng’s collar tightly, thinking that he did not believe her and hurriedly explained again, “It’s true, it’s true that no one can be more important than you. You said you’re afraid that once I give birth to our son, all my attention will be on him and I will neglect you. But regardless if they are sons or daughters, when they grow up to be adults they would eventually marry and form their own family and leave us. They’ll be like how we are now in the future, having a significant other half and regarding each of their families as the most important. No matter how many children we give birth to, they will all leave us eventually.”