Chapter 1933 Red Pill or Blue Pill.
Chapter 1933 Red Pill or Blue Pill.
Not waiting for Felix's response, Supreme Azzorus broke into white mist and fell back into consciousness lake, leaving Felix to ponder his words.
'Life is nothing but a string of information...If this is how the Supremes saw us, then, we mean nothing to them.'
Felix lowered his head and gazed at the white bracelet on his hand.
'Why does it make me mad?'
'Why does it make me feel like I am worth nothing? I am a person, I have a life, I have a soul, I have a mind, how can I be just some lines of codes?'
'It's not fair...None of this is fair.'
Felix tightened his grip as he could feel his blood turning hot in frustration and denial. He refused to accept his identity in the eyes of those godly figures. He knew that the moment he accepted it, his life would lose all meaning. There would be literally no point in doing anything when the truth was burrowing a hole inside his mind.
This left him with only two solutions to his dilemma.
First, dropping out of the ascension trial and requesting Empress Emily to erase his memories, allowing him to return to his previous stressful but happy life.
'If I turned my back, I can continue my family's legacy, enjoy my time with my lovely wife and son, maybe even add a few rascals to the family.' Felix smiled as he envisioned his life, ' I can grow old with them, teach them everything, and pass my legacy, knowing that I can let go with a content smile.'
Soon, that smile turned into a frown.
'But isn't that the same as living in a beautiful matrix? A lie where happiness is guaranteed? How can I come to terms with and accept such a life after everything I learned? How can I just turn my back on an opportunity to join the land of gods and just be content with living a mortal life?'
Without Felix realizing it, he found himself placed in the infamous blue/red pill choice.
The blue pill represented remaining in the contented experience of ordinary reality even if it was a mere lie while the red pill was accepting the unsettling life-changing truth regardless of its unfavorable attributes.
Felix was genuinely pondering on the matter as he never looked at himself lowly.
'Is this truly what I was born for? Is this truly the limits of my ambitions?' Felix's pupils kept thinning coldly as he dug deeper into the purpose of his life, 'I made continuing my family's legacy as my purpose, but that was never my dream, to begin with.'
'I might not know my purpose in life or dream and I might be in constant search for them, but if I am certain about one thing, I never do anything that doesn't speak to my heart.'
As Felix watched the collapse of the consciousness space around him, he slowly closed his eyes and thought one last time.
'At this moment, I refuse to accept living in a lie and I refuse to accept my identity to be just a string of pre-known information...I am Felix Maxwell and I am more than that.'
The moment his eyes were about to fade away with the collapsed space, Felix snapped them open, showing the creation of a tiny burning flame.
'I am going to show them.'
As the last thought resounded loudly in the void, two flickers in the shape of eyes emerged high above. Then, they thinned out into a merged smile before disappearing too...
...
Back to the metallic hall, the light dome dimmed out and took with it the divine pillars, showing everyone the condition of the chosen ones.
When they noticed that nothing happened to them, they didn't know if they should feel glad or mad.
Everyone was praying for their downfall for the sake of chance at being chosen even though they understood that the universe's survivability lay in their hands.
When Empress Emily saw their reaction, she couldn't help but murmur, "Humans' selfishness never ceases to amaze me."
She even got into an argument with her peers if it was the right decision to give humans the chance for ascension.
Unfortunately, it was Supreme Azzorus' own words that a human was a must for the replacement, leaving them no other choice.
That's why none of them showed themselves and deserted the entire procedure under her care. In their eyes, they would be screwed either way...At least, if they succeeded, they would continue surviving.
"After all, I don't think I can do this." Suddenly, a known scholar removed the white bracelet from his hand and threw it away with a disturbed expression like he was holding onto a curse.
Before anyone could react, he looked straight at Empress Emily and requested with a peaceful voice, "I wish to forget about this whole situation."
"Jonathan! What the hell are you doing?!"
"I volunteer as a replacement!"
"His position is mine! F*ck off!"
"I will do anything! Give it to me!"
The stands immediately erupted noisily at the sudden twist...They didn't even wonder what drove Jonathan to make such a decision as their eyes were blinded by greed and desire.
Meanwhile, his peer circle, who knew Jonathan on a deeper level, realized that he was one of the few true seekers of the truth in their generation.
Thus, it shocked them core to see him give up so easily and wish for his memories to be erased...A true scholar would never do such a thing.
"I would rather live in an illusion than participate in that devilish trial." Jonathan gazed at Felix and the others with a bitter smile and asked, "You are going to ruin your lives forever. Is it really worth it?"
In Jonathan's eyes, the requirement was simply too damaging to one's soul and mind. He knew that if he failed to integrate with the seven celestial hearts in the first universe and came back with those memories, he wouldn't be in the right state of mind to go again.
After all, he would have lived an entire life, a life longer than the one he was living right now. If those memories were to merge, his life would never be the same.
This wouldn't be mentioning the fact everyone would be erased in the other universe, providing him a not-so-needed dose of guilt that would last eternity.
As a scholar, his mind was everything and he refused to put it in such a horrible position.
"You are free to go."
Empress Emily said expressionlessly, not providing the others time to respond to him. Then, she kicked him out of the hall after erasing his memories, just like what he wanted.
As for why she did this? She already looked into their memories and noticed everything that happened to each one of them through Queen Ai.
Thus, she realized what needed to happen in the trial and knew that not everyone had the stomach to carry it out. Just as she wanted to pick up the white bracelet, it suddenly broke into white mist.
"It seems like there will be no new additions to the chosen participants in the trial." Empress Emily stared at everyone in the stands and announced, "Thank you for your time."
"Wait no..."
"Pleaase..."
"I wanna stay..."
Agitated, everyone clamored at once the moment they realized that Empress Emily was about to expel them.
Unfortunately, she showed them no mercy as she erased their memories and sent each one of them back home.
As Felix noticed how everyone was treated like they meant absolutely nothing, the fire in his eyes burned a little brighter...
'My goal is to stay on the side of the truth, regardless of what it takes...Regardless.'