Chapter 440 Why?
The song ended and everything went silent.
The world seemed to have halted as Hinari started wiping her tears. She bit her lip as she put the mic down. She was disappointed that when the song ended, her heart was still aching. It seemed like there was no cure for it.
Clutching her heart, Hinari turned towards the table and she started pouring alcohol into her glass. She drunk it in one go before she poured another glass full.
However, before she could put the glass to her mouth, someone held her wrist and stopped her. She raised her face and she was right, it was her beauty, her untouchable and beautiful firefly, Zaki.
"Ohh... my beauty, you’re here. Where’s my Davi?" she asked as casually as she could but the effect of alcohol on her was already evident in her eyes.
"She left with her husband," Zaki answered before he gazed at her intently. "Hinari, I have something to tell you."
As soon as Hinari heard him, she suddenly felt her heart squeezing tightly. Looking into his eyes, Hinari felt her eyes getting hot again because for some reason, she could feel that whatever he was going say that moment was going to break her heart.
"Hinari... I---" Just as Zaki started speaking, Hinari suddenly shoved him away and she ran off. Zaki immediately ran after her and gladly, he caught up to her.
He held Hinari’s wrist to stop her.
"Hinari... listen, please," Zaki pleaded. He held Hinari’s shoulders, making her stop and look at him. When the girl gazed back at him, Zaki’s jaws tightened and his lips began to tremble slightly.
"Hinari... I... I’m sorry... I’m sorry... We... Our engagement... Let’s---"
Before Zaki could finish his statement, Hinari’s palms covered his lips. Her eyes started to well and her lips trembled.
"B-beauty..." she stammered. Her eyes were pleading at him not to say the rest of his words as her tears started falling down her face.
Looking at her crying right before his very eyes, Zaki felt his heart shattering into a million pieces. His heart was growling in pain that he almost couldn’t breathe. He could feel her trembling fingers, see the pain in her eyes and hear the hurt in her voice.
That day their grandparents introduced her to him as his fiancé, Zaki made a promise to himself that he would protect this person. He promised to himself that he would make sure to let her fly freely.
He never wanted to hurt her like this. She was already hurting this much and he couldn’t bear to let her suffer any more than this. He couldn’t bear to let her feel any more pain because of him. He couldn’t bear to see her cry again so he must end this and set her free. Hinari... you deserve to be happy...
Zaki slowly lifted his hands and he slowly removed Hinari’s hands on his mouth. He felt like something was choking him to death, something inside him didn’t want to say it but Zaki already decided. He wouldn’t drag this person to suffer with him. He needed to disappear from her life now, to save her from more pain that he would inevitably bring if he stayed.
"Hinari... I’m sorry. Let’s end it all here---"
Once again, Hinari covered Zaki’s mouth. Her tears were flowing nonstop. The moment she heard him say the word "end", she felt like her heart stopped beating. Even though she already expected it, it was still as painful as hell. So painful she felt like she was going to go mad from the pain.
Hinari sobbed quietly for a while before she leaned her forehead onto her hands covering his mouth. The next moment, a sorrowful, soft voice came out of her mouth.
"Beauty... I love you! I really love you. I’ve been chasing you all these years. I’ve been waiting for you all this years. I... I really tried... i tried really hard to look for another man because I knew you would never open your heart to me but... I... I couldn’t like anyone else. My heart wants you and you alone. I don’t know why. Even though I am aware of the boundary you have set between us from the very beginning, I still stayed hopeful like a mad woman. No matter what I do, you’re the only one I want..."
Hinari was clutching her heart because it felt like it was being wrenched from her chest. She was crying so hard that she found it hard to breathe.
"Zaki... It’s really painful... why can’t I have you? Why can’t you love me, too? Tell me, why? Why?"
Hinari turned towards Zaki and started pounding his chest with her fists as she said those words. Zaki let her hit him, he let her pour out all the pent up feelings she had been holding onto and when she was done, he wrapped his arms around her and let her cry on his chest.