Chapter 192 Answer
Moments went by and Sei just kept on suppressing his intense desire to just hugged her tight. Well, it was because he knew that it’s still too early for him to rejoice.
He knew that what he was saying were words that no one could just accept so easily. And they were words that was so hard for him to say. Because, in his entire life, Sei never bothered explaining himself to anyone else. He didn’t care no matter what people thinks about him. He hated the idea of trying to reason out for yourself just for someone to understand. That was why, he grew up being dependent with Zaki’s social skills and he didn’t really know how to explain himself the better way.But this time, for the first time in his life, he wanted to explain himself to her. He wanted her to understand his reasons why. He deeply cared about what will be her reaction. That was why, for a long time now, he kept imagining the day when he could finally tell her these things, and just by thinking about it, he could already feel just how hard it is. The thought that he might lose her the moment she found out what he really is tortured him, causing him to think that the day he could tell her the facts about himself might never come anymore.
However, now that the actual thing is finally happening, Sei didn’t know why but as he looked at her eyes, the words that he thought that will never leave his mouth just kept coming out. He just felt as though, her comforting gazes were urging him to forget about his fear and just say it all.
Thus, the next moment, Sei continued talking.
"Even if I’ll tell you that... the whole world sees me as the most notorious criminal... would you still say you love me?" he asked again causing Davi to fell silence for a while. She gazed intently at his eyes trying to find a hint that he was just saying a what if situation. However, she could only swallow her saliva when she realized that he was seriously honest with all the words coming out his mouth. Well, Sei never once lied to her since the day they met.Thus, that moment, Davi didn’t know how to react. However, deep within her, she knew that whatever he’ll tell her, her love for him will never waver.
"I believe someone might have framed you." She then said subconsciously as she clench her her fist tight. Causing the man in front of her to get stunned with surprise for a short while.
"What made you think that... I was framed?" he then hesitantly asked when suddenly, Davi’s voice went loud as she shook her head.
"I don’t know! You’re my adorable husband, you’re not a notorious criminal. I know someone framed you or someone forced you. You are not a notorious criminal! You’re not!" she said and she didn’t know why she suddenly felt angered. She didn’t mean to deny the facts or be blinded with love, it’s just that she truly believes from the bottom of her heart that Sei was a good person. She just believes that Sei isn’t that kind of person no matter how cold he looks sometimes.However, the next second, what Sei said made Davi felt as though the extent of her love for him was being tested on just how deep it is.
"I...in the past, I killed people." He said and a long silence followed his words. Davi took a while to make a move again and she bit her lower lip hard. She stared at her husband’s ever so honest eyes again and she didn’t know why but she just wanted to cry. It was because for a reason unknown to her, the look in his eyes made her felt like needles were stabbing her heart.
It’s just as if his eyes were reflecting a painful past she didn’t know about."I believe you have reasons why. You may be forced to do it to defend or save yourself." She said and her eyes just began to welled up with tears. She then tugged his shirt as she continued.
"And it’s all in the past right? What you did in the past has nothing to do with my feelings for you! Even if... even if you will tell me that you’re a real monster, I will still say that I love you! Do you understand?!" she said and tears began to fall from her eyes.
That moment, Sei finally lost control and as soon as he saw tears falling from her eyes, he just hugged his wife as tight as he could. He was still at lost due to the impact of her words when an invisible knife was suddenly stabbed in his heart the moment she cried in front of him. After all, there’s nothing more painful for him than seeing his dear wife cry and get hurt.
"I’m sorry... I’m sorry... please don’t cry." Sei said helplessly as he kept caressing her back when Davi pulled away from him. She wiped her tears and she looked at him with serious gaze.
"Sei, tell me, what do you feel about me? I want your answer." She bravely said when that same moment, a noise of a chopper was suddenly getting closer and louder.
Until a moment later, the chopper was already above them. A strong wind created by it extinguished every flame of the candles around them before spot lights from two opposite direction that appeared to be coming from the mansion’s roof were directed towards them. And the next second, while Davi was still being confused on what was going on, Sei suddenly held her hand and the moment Davi returned her attention towards him, Sei’s eyes glimmered as he finally opened his mouth."Davi, this is my answer." He said and countless flowers began to fell over them like rain.