Chapter 549 - Great Opportunity (1)
Chapter 549: Great Opportunity (1)
The room once again fell into a suffocating silence. Though Zhao Youlin did not urge her to talk. She just looked quietly at Su He, waiting for her to answer.
Su He was silent for a long time. Then, she suddenly looked up at the half-closed window not far away and asked Zhao Youlin, “Youlin, what do you think of this house?”
Zhao Youlin was a little stunned. She followed Su He’s gaze and looked out of the window. “It’s pretty good. Your house is beautiful, and your room is beautiful and clean.”
Su He smiled and did not seem surprised by Zhao Youlin’s answer.
“Indeed, in the eyes of many people, this place is beautiful. But other than it being beautiful, what else do you see?”
Zhao Youlin furrowed her brows. She felt that something was off with Su He. “Xiao He, you…”
Su He did not pay attention to Zhao Youlin’s call. She kept staring at the bright and brilliant sunlight outside the window. A trace of envy emerged in her eyes.
“For many people, or for many girls, wearing big brand beautiful clothes, sitting in a luxurious restaurant eating expensive and extravagant meals, living in a beautiful and spacious castle, having servants to do things for her, be worry-free, all she has to do is worry about what she likes and what she doesn’t like. If she has things she doesn’t like, she will have someone to throw it out for her and it won’t appear before her again. As for the things she likes, it would appear before her on the second day, or even on the same day when she asks for it. This kind of life is enviable, isn’t it?”
Su He turned to look at Zhao Youlin as she said that. She was saying things that were desired by people, though her eyes were full of tears, making others feel sad for her.
This was Zhao Youlin’s first time seeing this side of Su He. Before that, in Zhao Youlin’s impression, Su He had always been the kind of cute girl who liked to act mature like an adult, but now, she found that maybe she had gotten the wrong impression of her since the beginning.
Zhao Youlin’s throat was suddenly a little dry. “But you don’t seem happy.”
Su He paused a little. She once again looked toward the window. The corners of her lips slightly raised in an arc with a hint of sarcasm and a hint of pain. “Yes, I have everything, but I still feel unhappy, I still feel unsatisfied. Tell me, do you think I’m too discontent, too greedy?”
“Xiao He…”
That’s why people say humans can be really ridiculous sometimes. All the girls out there aspire to the life of the rich, but those who grew up in rich families always thought about how to escape this life.”
Su He took a deep breath and said in a self-deprecating manner, “This gorgeous house has somehow become a beautiful cage that imprisons me from the world. I can do everything I want, except for freedom. I spent my childhood locked inside this house. I couldn’t go out and see the outside world. I couldn’t go out and meet other people freely. I couldn’t let my heart take me and make friends with others.”
Zhao Youlin was silent for a moment. She sighed and said, “Your parents are just worried about you getting hurt. They did not keep you locked up on purpose.”
“I know.” Su He closed her eyes. “Actually, I know that I am too greedy sometimes. I have what many people want but may not be able to get no matter how hard they work in their life, so this is the price I have to pay. Besides, for many people, this price is not that important.”
“Xiao He…”
Su He opened her eyes. She turned her head and smiled at Zhao Youlin. “Besides my family, Ye Yan is the… first friend I made.”
The expression on Zhao Youlin’s face became more and more serious. People always had a special feeling for the first thing they got, which was the same as the saying that a man could have countless girlfriends, but the most memorable one for them was often their first girlfriend, their first love.
“Since I was young, my brother has warned me that I can’t trust people, that people in this world are too complicated. Some people will approach us for money, fame, and power. They would put on a mask of sanctimoniousness to take advantage of us. So, at a very young age, I knew that because of my identity, it is impossible for me to follow my heart and make friends with whoever I want.”
Zhao Youlin lowered her eyes. She had to admit that Su He’s words were very right and hard to refute.
These days, even the staff of small departments in the office plot and play tricks against each other just for promotion, let alone a prestigious and big family like hers.
“Maybe it’s because I had been suppressing my feelings for too long, that’s why when it broke out, even I couldn’t hold them back.” Su He lowered her head. Looking from the angle of Zhao Youlin’s side, she could see her long eyelashes fluttering slightly a few times. “My encounter with him was an accident. He didn’t know my identity back then, or where I came from, he didn’t even know who I really am. But he was still willing to approach me, to concern me, to share everything he had with me, and even…” Made me a promise.
Su He had been trying to figure out how she lost her heart to Ye Yan back then.
Maybe… Maybe it was because she was lost at that time, and he just happened to be there when she felt really helpless. Maybe it was because the smile on his face was too bright when he extended his hand to her. Or maybe because the future he painted for her at that time was too wonderful.
Either way, this man had made a place in her heart, until this beautiful feeling for him escalated little by little into a morbid desire and possession of him.
Frankly speaking, the so-called wonderful future was nothing more than her wishful thinking.
The biggest fault of Ye Yan was he had made an improper promise at an unsuitable time, though he was still so young back then.
A child would not have known better. The problem here was the child who listened had taken it seriously, while the one who said it did not keep it in mind.
Zhao Youlin looked at the person in front of her and suddenly did not know what to say.
To Su He, Ye Yan was never just an ordinary friend. It was the first time since she could remember things that she had known someone from the outside world. He was a total stranger, yet she felt comfortable communicating with him.
That feeling was like when a dying person suddenly grabbed a life-saving straw. When a person who had stayed in a dark and cold place for too long suddenly saw the first light that was so warm and so bright, rather than a yearning, it was like salvation to her.
“So now you are going to…”
“I don’t want to have anything to do with him. It’s a good thing that he has forgotten about me. We will just go our separate ways, be strangers to each other, have nothing to do with each other.” As Su He said that, she reached out and touched her stomach. She smiled and said, “In fact, I have made up my mind that night. I will have nothing more to do with him, but I did not expect to be pregnant because of what happened that night. It was an accident, but I am grateful for this accident. I will keep this baby, as for him… I don’t ever want to see him again..”