Eternal Melody

Chapter 835 You Are The Secret Which Blooms In My Heart Part 2

TOH

Toh lost count how many times he had to tell her during the biting process that she was safe, and that he wouldn't hurt her. How many times he had to stop her hands from straying too far. She would grumble annoyed. But he would send a few images down her mind to calming her down.

His abilities certainly help during times like this, it makes communicating his thoughts to her easier. She can see what he is thinking while drinking and since he is sending images down. However, because of his ability as an involved human he is able to communicate directly.

He stops her hands from straying too far, and ensures that the heated atmosphere doesn't get to either of them. It was one of the hardest things he had to do. He is confident in restraining himself from touching her, but stopping her?

Stopping Sumire when he wants nothing more than to feel her. To have her touch him like she used to. However, he stops that train of thought knowing that even if she did touch him. It wouldn't be her doing that, physically yes but mentally? Mentally she would reject him. It is only due to the toxins when drinking blood, it acts as an aphrodisiac that heightens once sensuality.

After a few minutes, Sumire drew back.

"Is it enough?"

She slowly nodded.

"Bath?"

Sumire shakes head

"Sleep?"

Sumire slowly nodded her head again. Toh laid her down and tucked her in.

'She may need some food. Maybe something light?' Toh picks up his phone from the bedside table and sees the message from Narasaki. It explained the details of what happened, and a mini surveillance footage of the incident.

Seeing Lucifer's figure on the thumb nail. He clenched his fist. So, they saw each other after all. So much for preventing them from meeting one another.

Sumire was tugging on his shirt. "Stay?"

His lips curved to a smile. "Sure." Toh tosses the phone aside and takes his place beside the girl.

At first neither of them said anything, and yet Toh could feel her gaze on him. What is she thinking?

"Your feelings..for me." Sumire said breaking the silence.

"You saw?"

Sumire nodded. "I didn't think you'd still like me like that."

"Of course. I have very inappropriate thoughts about you." Toh admitted.

Sumire rolled her eyes. "I saw everything."

"Oh? Then you should know this position is quite dangerous."

"I just drained you."

Toh chuckles. "That wouldn't stop me." He drew circles on her stomach but didn't do much more.

"Toh--"

"You should work on your biting though.That hurt." Toh joked.

"H--hey!! I know I'm bad at it but--

"Unlike you, I am very good at biting. Licking too."

"I--I don't need you to teach me that!"

"Are you sure? Because I think you need lessons. I don't want to keep getting hurt."

"I--I'm going to bathe." Sumire stammered nervously.

"Sure, go ahead."

Toh watched her retreating figure until she was safely in the bathroom. However, recalling how she kept tugging on her sleeves earlier he frowned. Did she get hurt there?

Concerned, Toh finds himself taking his clothes off and slipping on a bathroom. Sumire was already in the tub, but she was simply sitting there in a daze..

For the next few minutes, he simply stood there and stared at her. The bubbles covered most of her skin, but he still saw enough for him to have very inappropriate thoughts.

Living together with Sumire wasn't going to be easy. From the very moment Mamoru suggested it, he knew something would go wrong.

Mamoru must have had the same thoughts, and yet still asked him. His gaze flickered towards the marks on her neck and frowned.

'Narasaki informed me about Sumire and Nagawa's current situation, but it still bothers him.'

Sumire must have felt his intense stare since she looked over at him. "Ah."

"Sorry for interrupting, I thought you could use some help."

"I don't mind."

"Are you sure?" Toh's lips curve to a smile. "I thought you would be more protective of your body."

Sumire sighed. "What's the point when you've seen everything before?"

He chuckled. "Indeed." Toh walked over to the row of bottles on the shelf next to the bathtub.

He picked out two bottles and placed them on the edge of the tub. Sumire was watching him half curious, and half cautious. Despite her casual words. Toh realized that she was self-conscious about this situation. They are both grown ups. He doesn't see any need for them to act weird about this now.

Toh extended his hands out and grabbed her wrist. Sumire continues to watch him as he helps her clean her arm.

"Why are you doing this?"

"I'm only helping."

He won't do anything more than

" Okay."

"Stay still." He instructed and Sumire relaxed.

Sometimes seeing her trust him this much was painful. After everything they have been through together, Toh understood that while he is a good guy in front of her. He still behaves the same way in front of others.

'I spent so many years with Lucifer. I was a child that was easily influenced.' He tries to convince himself that is the reason for the darkness in his heart. Tries to persuade himself that he isn't one of the monsters that belong to the Black alice organisation.

"What are you thinking?" Toh decided to change the topic.

"About San."

Toh frowned. "You don't have to think about him."

Sumure laughed. "Are you jealous?"

"You know damn well that I am. But even more than that, he is a waste of space.

"Because he hurt me?"

"If you know then-"

"But didn't you hurt me too?"

Toh frowned hearing her words. "Are you still upset?"

Sumire shakes head. "No."

"It sure seems like you're holding a grudge."

"I'm not angry at you Toh. I never was. I was angry at myself for just letting you go."

"You would have endangered yourself if you stepped in." Toh interjected. If she tried to do that, he may have resorted to behaving like Nagawa and hurt her with words just so she would stay away.

"Yes, but I was in love with you. I should have tried harder."

Toh blinked surprised at the girl's words.

"You loved me?"

"I think-" She paused. "I did." Sumire said quietly.

"Is your idea of love pinning me down, and shoving a dagger at my throat?" Toh said amused.

"That's because you surprised me."

"Did you stab everyone who surprises you?"

"Just you."

Toh chuckled. "So I'm special?"

"Maybe."

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