Chapter 433 - Letter
Yuhi thought it was a simple case of searching for Mamoru, but reading this now, he understands. Sumire didn't know about her hanyou powers, but she knew there was something wrong with her. How long has she been battling with the darkness without knowing what was wrong with her? It must have been so frightening.
She intended to find Mamoru, tell him, and then disappear.
I love you, and I love you.
I repeat these words to myself every night and the words you told me.
I love you..Yuhi so much, so please try to forget me already.
Forget me because even if I do, become strong and return. I have become a monster. Will you really still accept me, Yuhi?
I wanted to disclose the ring you gave me with this letter. But I'm afraid I can't do so. I can't. Even if I can't return it to you, please let me keep this ring. Just this, only this - I won't be selfish and ask to see you anymore. I love you…so much, Yuhi.
Yuhi sighed when he read the remaining contents of the letter. All the worry he had for her vanished immediately. That girl is the biggest fool he has ever met. Did she truly think he would let her go?
In the past, he did not think they could get together; even if she felt something for him, their relationship would not change.
She may have turned him down, but Yuhi knew that Sumire liked him then. He was satisfied with the relationship they had then. They were not together as a couple, but they remained by each other and watched each other's backs, the perfect partners.
His thoughts broke off when he heard a familiar pair of footsteps and looked up. There stood none other than Sumires fiance Makoto Soujiro.
Yuhi laughed when he saw the man. "Is it a coincidence?"
"I managed to track her down, but she disappeared right in front of me."
"You found her hurt?"
"I saw him hurt her-" Soujiro struggled to say those words. "Terashima, Tsueno is--"
Yuhis gaze dimmed at the mention of Mamoru. "I don't care, don't make any excuses for him," Yuhi said coldly. He does not care what is going on with Mamoru. No matter what is happening, why did he hurt Sumire?
Sumire went all that way to find him. Why on earth did that guy do this to her?
"You have to calm down. Nagawa is a good doctor; he will save her."
"I'm going to kill that bastard. He already survived and should be grateful for that. But instead of improving his second life, he went ahead and did something stupid. Next time I will be the one to kill him."
This is the first time in so long that he has felt such anger. But when he saw Sumire like that, he couldn't help it.
"Terashima-"
"When you found her, did she say something?"
"She said she wants to hurry up and see you, even though she was in that state."
"That's enough-"
He didn't need to hear anymore. Why is this girl so stupid? Why did she do something like this? His thoughts broke off when somebody passed him another envelope.
Yuhi looked up and spotted Shin. From his clothing, Yuhi could tell that his friend rushed all the way out here.
"Iwa gave me a call."
"Nagawa is operating," Yuhi pointed to the envelope. "This?"
"There was a recent assignment, writing a letter to our future selves. But Sumire, she didn't do that. She said writing a letter to her most important person is better."
Dear Terashima Yuhi-san
It might be strange for me to write this letter to you considering how we are already in a relationship. But I have always found it difficult to convey my feelings to you. No matter how much love I show you, I feel that I cannot express it properly. So I hope by writing this letter I can lighten the burden more.
I hope I am not bothering you by writing something so heavy.
There is a saying that people in this world exist for another person. I think for me that person is you. We are born to live. I was born in this world for you- to bring you happiness and joy that you deserve.
Does that sound too cheesy? But even before I became your fan, I felt that something strong connected me towards you. You see I knew of you since a long time ago, even before you became the popular singer.
This may be connected to the memories I lost, but it is a precious memory to me either way.
I wonder if you recall it? I was a bit of a crybaby and cried a lot in the park. Back then, you would comfort me even though you didn't know who I was, or maybe you did? Either way, that was one of my fondest memories as a child.
You don't know this, but every single time we meet, you would appear in my dreams. No matter what form or shape our meeting takes, I would dream of a future where I could stand by your side.
As a singer, as a painter- or just as a normal girl. I want to be the only one you spend your life with. Whether it is in ten, twenty, or even fifty years- I want to be the one who walks down that aisle and makes those vows with you.
This seems so wrong, indirectly proposing, but I don't dare to tell you in person. From the very start, you were my only world and the only one who has my heart.
Ibuki Sumire.
At the end of the letter, Yuhi clenched his fist. Why is she so foolish? These things, she should have just told him in person. What good does it do bottling up such emotions?
"You know, people were making fun of her for writing this letter for you. It is just an assignment, but she is the only one who took it seriously. Sorry, I had to mark it, so I got a look," Shin trailed off. "Yuhi, you understand, right? Even though she went to look for Tsueno Mamoru, it was only so she could convey those last words."
"She told you?"
"Yeah, even before they confirmed that he was alive, she suspected it and confined in me. She told me even if he is alive; the situation will not change. But she wants to tell him first."
He was worrying for nothing. Yuhi understood that, and yet he pushed that thought at the furthest end of his mind. He was preparing his heart; any day, they would show up together and say they were getting back together. He replayed the scenario of her breaking up with him so many times in his head, but no matter how prepared he was, he knew if it came to it, he wouldn't let her go.
Sumire has improved a lot since they first met again; she smiles a lot more. But sometimes, Yuhi wondered if she was truly happy. He cannot give her the same things as Mamoru.
His gaze fell towards the red operation sign. "Will she be okay?"
"Nagawa behaves like that, but he will never let anything happen to her."
Even though he is partly to blame for this situation, Yuhi supposes he has no choice but to trust the man.