Chapter 314 - Never Part 6
The morning after she had that discussion with Kou, she felt terrible, anxious, and frightened. She woke up feeling sick and nauseous.
Sumire knew what the main cause was, and it was another nightmare that led to this situation.
Others have defined dreams as a figment of one's imaginations; what do others say about nightmares? They say the same thing. It is all made up or depends on the individual's current mood. Nobody, however, would ever guess that it has something to do with an individual's past or physiological/mental state.
Her nightmares came like strange waves. Sometimes she would have them every day and get used to it. But there were times when it would disappear for an extended time and come in short waves. Those short waves, however, were more painful than the everyday ones.
Quite some time has passed since she woke up from a nightmare and felt this terrible. Sumire tossed and turned on the bed, hugging the pillow to her chest. She felt very uncomfortable and did not want to go anywhere. She closed the blinds, but small beams of light still entered the room, and she could hear Atushi opening up the bar downstairs.
Her thoughts broke off when somebody approached the bed, A familiar warmth on her cheek.
"Sumire?" Yuhi asked. "Do you want me to stay home?"
"You have work."
Yuhi shook his head. "You're more important to me."
"I'm supposed to meet Kou, the song.." She mumbled. She does not understand why she has avoided him the last three days.
Yuhi removed his tie and tossed it aside as he laid down beside her. She immediately buried her face in his arms, and she felt his hand on her back.
"Yuhi, you should go."
"No can do. I already told Atushi to leave today, so we will be alone here. When you're up for it, we can go downstairs and eat breakfast."
So that was the sound of Atushi packing up and leaving, huh? Jae said he would go fishing with the other members when he dropped by earlier. Atsuro is doing more tests, so Huan is not around either. She will be alone with Yuhi.
"You're acting so cute."
"Be quiet."
Yuhi brushed his lips against her ear. "I know you're not feeling so good. But you should eat something."
"Yuhi, am I weird?"
"Hmm?"
"I don't want to talk to anyone today, and I don't want to see anybody."
"Yeah, that's fine. You don't have to meet with anyone if you don't want to. But if you get lonely, I am here for you."
Why does this person say the things she wants to hear? Why does he accept everything? In the past, whenever she felt this way, those around her would look disgusted. They would tell her to stop sulking and get over it.
You have nothing to worry about.
Scared? Scared of what?
Her thoughts broke off when she felt Yuhi kiss her eyelids. "Or if you want, we can do something."
"Something?"
"Mm something, but only if you want."
If Yuhi touches her, then maybe all these unpleasant and disgusting feelings will disappear. If the person she loves holds her, will all the pain disappear? They both knew it wouldn't work; that method of coping will not help her.
"I would like to eat. But I don't want to go downstairs." Even if Atushi closed the place up, she knew there were still people who would try to peek through the windows.
"Then let me grab it for you real quick." He sat up and tucked the blanket around her. "It's only a few minutes, but here." Yuhi passed her phone to her. "Talk through this while I go downstairs?"
Sumire didn't know where he found her phone, but she knew it was hers. Yuhi already dialed the number, so all she would have to do is speak through it. He kissed her lips lightly before he eventually left her. The moment Yuhi left, she felt a throbbing pain in her right eye that she could no longer suppress.
While she has accepted having an ability, she still found this single eye transformation thing weird. What activates it? Also, she feels strange whenever she is around Yuhi. The first thing that stands out to her is his blood. The scent of his blood drives her crazy; even though he is not injured, she can smell it.
She hears a voice from her phone. "Still okay?"
"Thirsty."
Yuhi laughed softly. "Yeah, sorry about that. I got hurt earlier, so you probably smelled it when I hugged you."
"You got hurt? When who…" Her voice became frantic. She wanted to get out of bed and rush over, but she still felt lifeless.
"A minor cut when I went out shopping. One of the tins was open."
A deep sigh escaped her lips. "That is careless."
When she hears the sound of a pan, Sumire decides to stay quiet for a while. She does not want to disturb him.
Since that time, she hasn't seen Kou at all. She sighed deeply, maybe saying that was too much. But upon seeing Yuko-San again, she realized that she really couldn't make such promises like that. 'Yumi knows about your situation. Do they know how dangerous it is?'. When she brushed past Yuko-san, those words were directed at her yes but mainly towards Kou and the others.
The dangers of this, huh? Even so, she lifts the timetable in her hands. Quatro light's schedule I packed as it is. Would they find the time to practice for a concert now? It should be alright, but it may be pushing it a little bit.
She still has to catch up on the work she missed too. Perhaps for a while, she should lay of helping them out. Even if it's her, all of that work would be, but she cannot leave those people.
Did he go back to the apartment? She could text the others to find out, but that would mean talking to somebody else. On days like this, she does not want to speak or be near anybody because she is afraid of what she will say. She does not want to say anything that will hurt them. But in her current state, it will end up that way.
She no longer wants to hurt somebody with her words.