Chapter 242
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PEI Yi had decided to graduate in advance and was preparing to go to Guangzhou. Before that, he had not revealed any information.
“If nie dan had not let the cat out of the bag tonight, when were you going to tell me? Or perhaps you never even thought of telling me?”
“No!” After Jiang se said that, PEI Yi quickly denied it. “I was going to tell you after my birthday.”
Actually, he just didn’t know how to tell her, and he couldn’t bear to tell her. He was afraid that she would feel uncomfortable, so he kept delaying this matter.
“Sese, don’t be angry with me.”
He squatted on the ground, his face resting on her knees. His voice was trembling.
“I know I’m in the wrong for not telling you in advance.”
However, she had never experienced separation before, and neither had he.
He thought about what kind of words to use to organize and say this, but he had mulled it over for many days, and his heart was more and more vexed by the day, but he still couldn’t think of a proper way.
“I just thought that the later I tell you, the later you’ll be troubled.”
The PEI family had already made this decision clear to him before the new year. In the past, he only wanted to be with Jiang se and date her sweetly without thinking about the future. However, when the elders asked him about his future plans, the only thing he thought about the furthest was the manor in France. The White curtain draped over her. The wine that the two of them had personally brewed might be drunk when they got married in the future.
This was what he had thought the furthest.
However, old master PEI sat on the chair and shook his head, saying that this was not enough.
If he only looked at the present, this was enough. If he wanted to look into the long run, this was not enough.
When the wind and rain came, he couldn’t even hold up an umbrella. Now, the umbrella over his head was being held by the PEI family.
When old master PEI had asked him these questions, he had not thought so much about it.
He was still young, not even twenty years old. Initially, his greatest worry was how to get Feng Nan to acknowledge him. Later on, his greatest worry was how to like Jiang se.
He should not just say that he cherished her. He should use his actions to express it. His life had been too smooth, and the only obstacle he had was to pursue Feng Nan.
When he was wooing Feng Nan, Feng Nan had always ignored him. Old master PEI thought that this was a good thing. It made him realize that there were some things in the world that could not be fulfilled just because he wanted them.
“I remember your third year.”
Tears welled up in his eyes, and his voice was a little choked as he said this. He buried his face in her lap and held it in for a while before he continued, ”
“My grandfather asked if I like you.”
Jiang se lowered her head to look at him. He was crouching down with his face turned to her. Under the dim yellow light, his eyes were glistening. He held her waist very tightly. His grip was so strong that his arm tightened around her sleeve. For the first time, she realized that he was really different from before.
When he was young, he would always shout for Feng Zhongliang to send her to the PEI family. He would raise Feng Nan for the Feng family. His childish words made a group of people laugh until they bent over. Everyone laughed at him for getting a wife in advance.
At that time, his personality was lawless, like a little tyrant, and he was very proud. Among the group of children, he was the leader.
Every time she went to the PEI family’s house and went back with Feng Zhongliang, PEI Yi did not cry or wail. Instead, he domineeringly locked the door and did not allow the two of them to leave.
His childish actions always made the PEI family not know whether to laugh or cry.
“Sese, why do you think it’s so strange?”
He pursed his lips, afraid that she would hear the trembling in his voice. He was afraid that he would forever be a memory in her heart.
I was always so bold when I was young. I said I liked you and didn’t want you to come home. I said it right away.
He pointed at Feng Zhongliang and threatened him to keep Feng Nan and not let him bring him home. He said that he would say whatever he wanted back then. the older I am, the more I don’t dare to say anything. Grandpa said that the ignorant are fearless.
Instead, he became worried about his gains and losses.
He began to keep his thoughts to himself and did not say some things easily. In front of her, he did not dare to say the word ‘like’.
When his grandfather had asked him if he liked her, he could still remember how he had felt at the time. He had been so excited that his face and ears had turned red, and his heart had felt like it was about to jump out of his chest. The blood in his body had been boiling and rushing to the top of his head.
At that time, he was younger than Feng Nan by five years and had just started high school. He was as young as a sour fruit and carefully tried to hide his feelings.
When old master PEI asked him questions, he would shake his head and stubbornly say,’no’. Behind his back, he was holding a huge stack of confession letters written to Feng Nan. He read each one carefully and then, when night fell, he would tremble with anger, but he would still seriously reject each letter for her.
He had been doing this kind of childish thing for more than two years!
In fact, she didn’t even know about it in the end.
His results had taken a nosedive, and he was jealous of everyone who had confessed to Feng Nan in the open.
The age gap had widened the distance between them. When she was in high school, she had already experienced those young and inexperienced days, while he was still young at that time. He had only followed her footsteps repeatedly.
When she was in University, he was not the person of the same age as her. In Feng Nan’s eyes, he was just a younger brother.
He had missed five years with her, and it felt like their lives were going to be separated into two parallel lines.
Grandpa said that the matching between people doesn’t come from family background or status. It’s just an embellishment. The things that people are born with are just their starting points that are higher than others and their advantages.
However, having these things wasn’t just to make people stop, but to encourage people to improve.
Just like how the modern people stood on the shoulders of the ancient people, just like how China was born after the victory of the revolution to move forward, not to be stuck in the current situation and be satisfied with what was in front of them.
PEI Yi had always felt that the relationship between him and Jiang se was a matter of age, but old master PEI had denied it.
Feng Nan had five more years of advantage than him. The Feng family’s background was not as good as the PEI family’s, but she had excellent knowledge, cultivation, and vision. She had more bearing and elegance. Back then, when he had put all his heart and mind into chasing after Feng Nan and trying to win her heart, she was already looking far ahead and not looking back. Therefore, when a person was moving forward without stopping, she would not turn her head and see the shadow of the person behind her.
Old master PEI’s words seemed to have jolted him out of his dream.
He vaguely understood where the problem was coming from. He recalled Jiang SE’s rebirth. She was not stumped by the predicament of her rebirth. After her rebirth, she continued to focus on her own matters, no matter how difficult it was.
He was still repeating what had happened yesterday.